October 2024 in Review

(Preparing to welcome ghost hunters into former slave quarters at Old Cahawba. The quarters were renovated into a standard house in 1935, after the main residence burned, but a historical commission is “restoring” it to the original design.)

If you’re interested in reading about the building, here’s a page on it that shows how it looked prior to the “restoration”, as well as a photo of the Kirkpatrick mansion.

It’s technically possible, but highly improbable that I finish anything else tonight and tomorrow, so let’s wrap this month up. (Edit: I was wrong. Finished Anxious Generation at lunch.) October was crazy busy with school work, so much so that when the professor sent out a mid-semester survey she was evidently overwhelmed by “PLEASE MAKE IT STOP” feedback and retooled a few of our assignments. Most of my reading tended toward the casual, then, with a nod toward ‘spooky season’ in the form of books about obituaries and cemeteries. I made no progress toward any of my standing challenges, but academia comes first given how much money I’m spending on it. The highlight of the month, of course, was visiting two others at the Resisting the Machine event in Birmingham, and seeing the amazing variety of interesting books on display. Although I’m going to be spending November working on a big grad school project due in December (….planning eight library programs, producing flyers, and researching budgets) I knocked out some minor assignments earlier in the semester so I should have more time now for reading.

Favorite Highlight/Quote:

We humans are like fish dwelling at the bottom of a pond. We perceive the sun’s light filtered imperfectly to the depths. […] The higher we rise, the more clearly we see. The beauty shining through great art — painting, poetry, sculpture, dance, music, architecture, and so forth — calls us out of the depths of our spiritual slumber and up toward the pure light.” (Living in Wonder)

New Acquisitions:
Living in Wonder, Rod Dreher. Preordered months ago, but I bought the hardback to get signed & cancelled the Kindle preorder.
The Medieval Mind of C.S. Lewis, Jason Baxter. Met the author at the Dreher-Kingsnorth event and decided to go ahead and go for it.
The Silmarillion, JRR Tolkien. Friend picked this up at an estate sale and gave it to me.
Greenlights, Matthew McConaughey. Friend picked this up it a thrift store and gave it to me.
The C.S. Lewis Collection: Signature Classics. Eleven of his works in a $3 ebook? Count me in! I’ve read most of them (save for Letters to Malcolm and Reflections on the Psalms) and have half of them in physical form, but it’s always nice to be able to carry around Jack in my pocket.

Pending Reviews
Still trying to get my head around Living in Wonder. Just finished Anxious Generation.

Coming up….

Although I did a ‘SF Sweep’ in September, Vero @ Dark Shelf of Wonders alerted me to a bookish event in November called SciFi Month. I figured I’d throw in with it, since it’s not as if I’ll run out of SF to read any time soon! If you’re interested in participating, click the banner to find the hosts at Always Room for One More, BookForager, Dear Geek Place, and a Dance with Books. Preview of what is coming up will follow on November 1st.

Also, one of the two booktubers I follow, Olive (the other being Marian of Classics Considered), is hosting Nonfiction November for the final time, and given that finality I’d like to participate in that as well, with an eye toward restoring Nonfiction to its proper place on the reading throne after so long a fictional usurpation. That won’t happen, but maybe by December they can reach parity. Does this goal directly contradict the focus on science fiction? Absolutely. Guess we’ll just have to see what happens.

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WWW Wednesday

Today’s prompt from Long and Short Reviews inquires: what superstitions do I have? To my knowledge, I don’t have any besides the strange compulsion to hold down the left shift key when I’m playing Civilization III, and tap it manically if my unit begins losing. Why my brain decided there was a relationship between my tapping a keyboard and the fate of my computer units, I have no idea. I actively resist it when I play Civ 3, and it has gotten weaker over the years. But as far as knocking on wood, avoiding black cats, not walking under ladders, all that sort of thing — it’s never been an issue for me.

WHAT have you finished reading recently? Living in Wonder, Rod Dreher.

WHAT are you reading now? The Anxious Generation, Jonathan Haidt. On the spike in mental illness exhibited by Gen Z. Also re-reading Crunchy Cons by Rod Dreher to see how my take on it has changed after 11 years.

WHAT are you reading next? I’m participating in both SciFiMonth and Nonfiction November, so something along those lines.

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Top Ten Tuesday: Suspense/Scary Movies I’ve Seen in 2024

Today’s treble-T is a Halloween freebie, so I’m going to highlight the ten most scariest/most suspenseful movies I’ve watched this year. But first! …the tease…

The most exciting thing in my life at the moment is a five-gallon bucket full of human excrement. I should explain. (Paul Kingsnorth, “Learning What to Make of It”. Confessions of a Recovering Environmentalist)

And so! Disturbing, suspenseful, or scary movies I’ve seen this year:

(1) Syk pike  |  Sick of Myself, 2023.   A disturbing film about a young woman (Signe) who falls into a deep well of narcissism: her need for attention is such that she orders anxiety pills off the black market which she knows will make her break out into a skin rash if she takes too many of them — so naturally, she eats them like skittles. The scenes of her taking photos of her disfigured self to share on social media,  her toxic delight  in any attention is profoundly unsettling, though it becomes darkly comic at times, as when she and her partner are being ‘romantic’, shall we say — his “dirty talk” is telling her how he’s visiting her in the hospital, and if she dies he’ll make sure her dad and her ex-friend Anine can’t come because they didn’t come see her in the hospital, that sort of thing.  

(2) Taxi Driver, 1976.   A mentally disturbed and socially awkward veteran who is getting by driving a taxi becomes infatuated with Cybil Shephard, a political campaigner: after disgusts her taking her to a dirty movie (he’s socially oblivious), he hatches a plan to assassinate the man she’s campaigning for, but then encounters a child prostitute (played by Jodie Foster) who he decides to rescue.   Fascinating and disturbing. 

(3)Bronson, 2008. Tom Hardy is Michael Peterson, aka Charlie Bronson, an absolutely violent but weirdly charistmatic serial offender who has spent 30+ years in solitary. The film is framed as Charlie giving a one-man show about his life. Watching this and The Dark Knight Rises, I’m baffled as to how his Shinzon in Star Trek Nemesis could be such an un-interesting character.

(4)Tremors, 1990. After I mentioned I’d watched Dune, a coworker said “I prefer the sand-worms in Tremors.” Upon learning that I’d never watched it, she gave me a 4-disc set with orders to watch at least the first one. Fun horror-comedy in which rednecks are the heroes. My country favorite Reba McEntire is a supporting character as part of a husband-wife prepper team. I never knew how much I needed to hear Reba talking about rifle and shotgun gauges. “BROKE INTO THE WRONG (GORRAM) REC ROOM, DIDN’TYA?!?!”

(5) Monkey Man, 2024. A REALLY interesting film about an Indian orphan whose mother was brutally killed by a cop, who burns for vengeance. He’s a boxer who starts working for a hotel so he can get close to the cop, but after his first attempt fails catastrophically, The Kid regroups at a temple of people who have been persecuted by the cop. Interesting look at modern Mumbai, good acting, all around good time, and rooted in Indian religious culture..

(6) A Clockwork Orange, 1971. Disturbing film about a teenage psychopath who is treated and made to feel revulsed at the thought of violence or lust, but who after his release is continually assaulted by those he offended which (as the movie ends) appears to lead to the mental conditioning failing. If I had known how much sexual violence there was in this, I might not have bothered. It proved quite interesting, but the beginning was….insane.

(7) Cloverfield. Watched without knowing anything about it, which is probably the best way. A “found footage” film that begins as the innocent documenting of a good-bye party (that includes relationship drama) and ends with witnessing a monstrous attack on Manhattan. Gotta wonder how Manhattan audiences reacted to it, only a few years after 9/11. Effective horror-action film save for some implausibilities like the camera’s battery and film lasting for 10+ hours.

(8) The Sixth Sense, 1999. A kid is psychologically disturbed: Bruce Willis tries to help. Unfortunately, this movie was spoiled for me years ago, and I couldn’t experience it the way a first-time viewer should:  as you may or may not know, it has a twist equivalent to the one in Fight Club.   Solid acting and music, and easily the sweetest horror movie I’ve ever seen. (…not that it has any competition…)  I mentioned to a horror-loving friend that I was watching this, and he replied “I can’t wait for you to review Avengers Endgame in 25 years”

(9) Basketcase, 1982. A horror film that’s…slightly comic at this point, while not losing its disturbing nature. It’s comic because of the practical effects, which I’m sure were most impressive at the time.  What’s in the basket?  You really don’t want to know. 

(10) Late Night with the Devil, 2024. Creepy and interesting film that’s set in Halloween 1977: the host of a late-night show called Night Owls hopes to combat faltering ratings by having on his show — on Halloween Night — a teenager who was the only survivor of a satanic cult’s mass suicide. The panel’s guests include a Uri Gellar standin, a James Randi standin who is impressive in his accuracy (he even has a CSICOP-like organization & the same half-million prize for someone who can prove paranormal activity in controlled conditions), and the aforementioned posessed girl and her guardian/psychologist. The film is presented as the aired episode of the show — with titles, cutaways, and the like — and is even letterboxed, not wide screen. It goes into Exorcist territory, though not all the way, and has some backstory that touches on Bohemian Grove. Interesting but disturbing.  I was amused by the Randi caricature’s details. A mix of live broadcast and found-footage. 

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Nonfiction November Kickoff

Although I’m planning on doing SciFiMonth in November, there are also two “Nonfiction November” events happening, and I figured I’d join in with hopes of giving my nonfiction reading a shot in the arm, since it’s been fairly overwhelmed by novels this year. Here’s the fun part: there are two “Nonfiction Novembers” happening, one by BookOlive (with four ‘challenge words’ for participants to match with a book they’ll read) and then one in the bloggersphere. The blogosphere one has writing prompts, so I’ll concentrate on it and if some of my reads match Olive’s challenge words, so much the better.

The hosts for the blog-challenge are:
Liz (Adventures in reading, running and working from home),
Frances (Volatile Rune),
Heather (Based on a True Story),
Rebekah (She Seeks Nonfiction),
and Deb (Readerbuzz)

(Text shamelessly copied fromWordsandPeace.)

The prompt for Week One is:

Celebrate your year of nonfiction. What books have you read?
What were your favorites? Have you had a favorite topic?
Is there a topic you want to read about more?
What are you hoping to get out of participating in Nonfiction November?

I just checked my massive “Books: The Spreadsheet” excel sheet, which declares that Fiction is leading Nonfiction, 91 to 64, which — if you’re familiar with this blog — is weird. Usually nonfiction is leading fiction with a 70/30 split. Unsurprisingly, history accounts for a full third of all of my nonfiction read this year, with science secure in second, Society and Culture holding a tentative third, and Religion & Politics competing for fourth. Though my general goal would be to narrow the absurd gap between nonfiction and fiction, I may specifically target science so I can complete my science survey for this year: there are three categories remaining (Geology, Oceanography, and Natural History; Weather and Climate; and Thinking Scientifically). Nonfiction hasn’t produced a lot of five-star bold titles, but How to Stay Married is probably the best nonfiction title I’ve read this year. That may change once I finish Anxious Generation.

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Confessions of a Recovering Environmentalist

Two years ago I read a Wendell Berry collection of essays edited not by Brother Berry himself, but by someone named Paul Kingsnorth. Being the nosy sort that I am, I inquired of Google who Kingsnorth might be, I knew at once this was a man worth knowing more about — an ardent lover of the wild, a Christian mystic who had abandoned big-city journalism to work the land in rural Ireland. I’ve been reading to read some of Kingsnorth’s published stuff, beyond his substack articles, and meeting him last weekend (ever so briefly) prompted me to get at it. Confessions of a Recovering Environmentalist collects of his published articles, most of which have some connection to environmentalism, the unsustainable nature of our present civilization. The title essay is superb, and the collection as a whole has a strange aura of elegant, sad beauty.

In the main, the essays are linked together in their reflections on the natural world, humanity, and our relationship with it — especially vis a vis the use of technology. If a reader is familiar with the writings of Wendell Berry on industrial agriculture and humanity’s relationship with the land and all the life that dwells therein, they’ll have some notion of where Kingsnorth is coming from — but Kingsnorth is also something of a mystic. Although this was written fifteen years before he converted to Eastern Orthodoxy (he appears to have been practicing a form of Buddhism in this period), Kingsnorth is very porous spiritually here, with a genuine love for Nature and wildness. Not a love for nature as in “Oh, I love hiking/fishing/birding” etc, but that he seeks Nature out as a man in love might, beholds mountains and fields and starlit skies with the same adoration lovers have for one another. He mentions praying in caves frequently, and during his recent trip to Alabama he made a point of visiting the mountainous area of the state so he could pray there. It was this love for nature that made him a ‘green’ in his youth, and in his title essay he documents what was for him the heartbreaking capture of the green movement into the ‘environmental’ movement, one dominated by quants and men in suits and driven not by love of nature and wildness, not by the desire to save beauty for its own sake, but merely so that technical civilization could go on growing and expanding and avoid any messy friction like global warming and rising seas. He especially bemoans the fact that the environmental movement has become hyperfixated on carbon, ignoring other challenges and the fact their solutions to avoid carbon often contribute to those challenges, generally through their high-tech solutions that Kingsnorth views as part of the problem.

It’s not an accident that Kingsnorth featured in a conference called Resisting the Machine, or that he’s presently working on a book called Against the Machine: in one essay here, Kingsnorth reflects on technology and comments that it’s almost as if technology, so intertwined with financial dynamos and power, has developed agency and a will of its own — becoming a gollum, if you will, one that will destroy its creators through their sheer dependency on it, and through what it does to the natural world we are still dependent on even as we try to replace it through strength of will. Joel Salatin and Wendell Berry’s frequent comparison of living soil versus what American agriculture is generally grown in — dead dirt saturated with outside chemicals — comes to mind. Kingsnorth’s essays reveal him to be actively trying to withdraw from this machine: he left big-city journalism behind to buy a small farm in rural Ireland, where he does things like composting his and his family’s manure. Although reflections on tech, nature, and the intersection thereof dominate this collection, there are also a few miscellaneous essays like his fascinating speculation about the prevalence of “green man” art in early Christian churches: he posits that they are references to Anglo-Saxon rebellion against the Norman conquest.

I began reading this Friday evening and it completely derailed all other plans (besides sleep and work) until I’d finished Saturday afternoon. I really wish I’d read this before I met Kingsnorth so I could have had something more meaningful to say other than “Thanks for The World-Ending Fire“: I’ll definitely be reading his other collections!

Quotes/Highlights:

You can best serve civilisation by being against what usually passes
for it. – Wendell Berry

I saw that the momentum of the human machine – all its cogs and wheels, its production and consumption, the way it turned nature into money and called the process growth – was not going to be turned around now. Most people didn’t want it to be; they were enjoying it. All the arguments, all the colourful campaigns, all the well-researched case studies were just washing up on the beach and expiring quietly on the sand, like exhausted jellyfish. There was no stopping what we had unleashed. We were going to eat everything, including ourselves.

When things fall apart, the appetite for new ways of seeing is palpable, and there are always plenty of people willing to feed it by coming forward with their pet big ideas. But here’s a thought: what if big ideas are part of the problem? What if, in fact, the problem is bigness itself?

Kohr’s claim was that society’s problems were not caused by particular forms of social or economic organisation, but by their size. Socialism, capitalism, democracy, monarchy – all could work well on what he called ‘the human scale’: a scale at which people could play a part in the systems that governed their lives. But once scaled up to the level of modern states, all systems became oppressors. Changing the system, or the ideology that it claimed inspiration from, would not prevent that oppression – as any number of revolutions have shown – because ‘the problem is not the thing that is big, but bigness itself’

I didn’t know much when I was twenty-one, which was why I thought I knew everything.

For the first time, I realise the extent and the scope and the impacts of the billboards, the posters, the TV and radio ads. Everywhere an image, a phrase, a demand or a recommendation is screaming for my attention, trying to sell me something, tell me who to be, what to desire and to need. And this is before the internet; before Apples and BlackBerries became indispensable to people who wouldn’t know where to pick the real thing; before the deep, accelerating immersion of people in their technologies, even outdoors, even in the sunshine. Compared to where I have been, this world is so tamed, so mediated and commoditised, that something within it seems to have broken and been lost beneath the slabs. No one has noticed this, or says so if they have. Something is missing: I can almost see the gap where it used to be. But it is not remarked upon. Nobody says a thing.

When I look back on this now, I’m quite touched by my younger self. I would like to be him again, perhaps just for a day; someone to whom all sensations are fiery and all answers are simple.

[T]he world has changed. There are more cars on the roads now, more satellites in the sky. The footpaths up the fells are like stone motorways; there are turbines on the moors and the farmers are being edged out by south country refugees like me, trying to escape but bringing with us the things we flee from. The new world is online and loving it, the virtual happily edging out the actual. The darkness is shut out and the night grows
lighter and nobody is there to see it.

It took a while before I started to notice what was happening, but when I did it was all around me. The ecocentrism – in simple language, the love of place, the humility, the sense of belonging, the feelings – was absent from most of the ‘environmentalist’ talk I heard around me. Replacing it were two other kinds of talk. One was the save-the-world-with windfarms narrative; the same old face in new make-up. The other was a distant, sombre sound: the marching boots and rattling swords of an approaching fifth column.

The environment is the victim of this empire. But ‘the environment’ – that distancing word, that empty concept – does not exist. It is the air, the waters, the creatures we make homeless or lifeless in rocks and legions, and it is us too. We are it; we are in it and of it, we make it and live it, we are fruit and soil and tree, and the things done to the roots and the leaves come back to us. We make ourselves slaves to make ourselves free, and when the shackles start to rub we con dently predict the emergence of new, more comfortable designs.

If a flush toilet is a metaphor for a civilisation that wants to wash its hands of its own wastes as long as they accumulate somewhere else, then a compost toilet is both a small restitution, and a declaration: I will not turn my back on the consequences of my actions. I will not hand them over to someone else to deal with. I will not crap into clean drinking water and flush it down a pipe to be cleaned with industrial chemicals at some sewage plant I have never visited. I will fertilise my own ground with my own manure, and in doing so I will control an important part of my life in this world, and that control will give me more understanding over it. I will claw something of myself back. Even in the rain, even in winter, I will deal with my own shit.

We wanted to live more simply; or perhaps just more starkly, because life here is rarely simple. Our kids were just getting to school age, and the idea of sending them to school to systematically crush their spontaneity and have them taught computer coding so that they could compete in the ‘global race’ made us miserable. We wanted to grow our own food and compost our own shit and educate our own children and make our own jam and take responsibility for our own actions.

” I’ve thought for years that the best way to put a spanner in the consumer dystopia that is unfolding is to ground yourself in a place and to learn to do things with your hands – actually learn to do them, not just write about learning to do them. Grow your own carrots, learn to use an axe and a scythe, know where the sun falls and what the trees do and what is growing in the laneways. Get to know your neighbours, put down roots and stay even when you don’t want to stay. Be famous, as Gary Snyder so wonderfully suggested, for fifteen miles.”

But certainly the endpoint of a culture that focuses on human desire above all things, rejects all previous ways of living, worships machines, sneers at the spiritual and sees the world as a collection of components to be taken apart and analysed in the service of utility, is a world in which humanity disappears further and further into narcissistic virtuality, ‘improving’ its own capabilities with its technology while the world
burns around it.

I discovered John Betjeman, the chronicler of the death of Middlesex, in my early twenties. I discovered old-fashioned poems about places I knew – Harrow, Greenford, Rayner’s Lane, Ruislip in guises that meant nothing to me. It was like seeing a picture of your mother at eighteen, young and free and with no idea you will ever be born. Here was a county of whispering pines, enormous hay fields, elm trees, meadowlands, low, laburnum-leaned-on railings. The evocation of its loss was strong and clean and managed to raise a nostalgia in me for something I had never been part of. For it wasn’t the world I knew. I knew pavements and park railings and cul-de-sacs and council estates and concrete street lamps and white dogshit and the remains of old air-raid sirens. Compared to its past richness, my Middlesex was a drab monoculture. It was, in Betjeman’s words, ‘silent under soot and stone’. But I liked it, because it was where I came from.

I wonder now whether we could Middlesex the whole world. I wonder if we could replace the rainforests with plantations, fish out the seas until only a couple of commercial species are left, carpet the moors in turbines and dam all the rivers and build endless suburbs over what remains of the hay meadows that are now used to grow maize for silage. I wonder if we could busy ourselves with our microchips and machines, turning the world into a planetary farm to support our digital appetites and sinking deeper into our machine-led narcissism as we do. I wonder if we could deplete the diversity and richness of this wild world by 80 or 90 per cent – and within a few generations see it all forgotten, even by those who noticed its going. I wonder if, raised in this culture, with all the new toys to play with, wearing our Google Glasses, sitting in our self driving cars, we would even notice, or care?

I have written about retreating and withdrawing several times before, and it has often brought down on my head accusations of ‘defeatism’ and the like from the activist minded. But it’s not about defeat, or surrender. It’s about pulling back to a place where you can nd the breathing space to be free and human again. From that, all else follows, if you can pay attention.

I’ve recently begun reading the collected writings of Theodore Kaczynski. I’m worried that it may change my life. Some books do that, from time to time, and this is beginning to shape up as one of them.

Illich’s critique of technology, like Kaczynski’s, was really a critique of power. Advanced technologies, he explained, created dependency; they took tools and processes out of the hands of individuals and put them into the metaphorical hands of organisations. The result was often ‘modernised poverty’ in which human individuals became the equivalent of parts in a machine rather than owners and users of a tool. In exchange for ashing lights and throbbing engines, they lost the thing that should be most valuable to a human individual: autonomy. Freedom. Control.

This culture is about superstores, not little shops, synthetic biology not local community, brushcutters not scythes. This is a culture that develops new life forms rst and asks questions later; a species that is in the process of, in the words of the poet Robinson Jeffers, ‘break[ing] its legs on its own cleverness’.

Say what you like about religion, but at least it teaches us that we are not gods. The ethic that is promoted by the de-extinctors and their kind tells us that we are gods and we should act like them. While it may sometimes pose as conservation or environmentalism, this is in reality the latest expression of human chauvinism; another manifestation of the empire of homo sapiens sapiens. If it marches forward it will usher in the end of the animal, and the end of the wild. It will lead us towards a New Nature, entirely the product of our human-ness. There will be no escape from ourselves. We might call it Total Civilisation.

I wonder if there has been a society in history so uninterested in the sacred as ours; so little concerned with the life of the spirit, so contemptuous of the immeasurable, so dismissive of those who feel that these things are essential to human life. The rationalist vanguard would have us believe that this represents progress: that we are heading for a new Jerusalem, a real one this time, having sloughed o ‘superstition’. I am not so sure. I think we are missing something big. Most cultures in human history have maintained, or tried to maintain, some kind of balance between the material and the immaterial; between the temple and the marketplace. Ours is converting the temples into luxury apartments and worshipping in the marketplace instead. We are allergic to learning from the past, but I think we could learn something here.

Which way are we going to walk? What are we going to choose? Spiritual teachers throughout history have all taught that the divine is reached through simplicity, humility and self-denial: through the negation of the ego and respect for life. To put it mildly, these are not qualities that our culture encourages. But that doesn’t mean they are antiquated; only that we have forgotten why they matter. This is not something we ought to be proud of.

I have always associated England with small, secret things, and Britain with big, bombastic ones. Britain to me is empire and royalty, Satanic mills and the White Man’s Burden. England is the still pool under the willows where nobody will nd you all day, and the only sound is the fish jumping in the dappled light. It’s a romantic vision, I know, but then nations are, like people, at least partly romantic things.

[A] little England sounds pretty good to me. An England that pays attention to its places rather than wiping them out in the name of growth; an England that doesn’t have imperial designs; an England that doesn’t want to follow America into idiotic wars for the sake of prestige. An England that stops trying to ‘punch above its weight’, and instead asks why it is punching at all.

I don’t want to sound as if I’ve read too much science ction, but I’m on board with both Kelly and Kurzweil to this extent: this thing [Technology] is bigger than us now. It is developing a degree of autonomy, and it is using us, somehow, to create itself. I know this sounds like a conspiracy theory, but it’s not really a theory, it’s more of a hunch: a conspiracy feeling. We are surrendering the freedom to be human in exchange for the freedom to live in confected dreams: dreams in which nature is dead, except for the pretty bits, and bad things never happen, and nobody dies, and there is nothing to life but entertainment and everything we see we can control, because we have created it.

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Our hearts are in the trim!!

Today is the feast of St. Crispian, which means it’s time to share some Kenneth Branagh w’ ye all.

King Harry: If we are mark’d to die, we are enow
To do our country loss; and if to live,
The fewer men, the greater share of honour.
God’s will! I pray thee, wish not one man more.
By Jove, I am not covetous for gold,
Nor care I who doth feed upon my cost;
It yearns me not if men my garments wear;
Such outward things dwell not in my desires:
But if it be a sin to covet honour,
I am the most offending soul alive.
No, faith, my coz, wish not a man from England:
God’s peace! I would not lose so great an honour
As one man more, methinks, would share from me
For the best hope I have. O, do not wish one more!
Rather proclaim it, Westmoreland, through my host,
That he which hath no stomach to this fight,
Let him depart; his passport shall be made
And crowns for convoy put into his purse:
We would not die in that man’s company
That fears his fellowship to die with us.
This day is called the feast of Crispian:
He that outlives this day, and comes safe home,
Will stand a tip-toe when the day is named,
And rouse him at the name of Crispian.
He that shall live this day, and see old age,
Will yearly on the vigil feast his neighbours,
And say ‘To-morrow is Saint Crispian:’
Then will he strip his sleeve and show his scars.
And say ‘These wounds I had on Crispin’s day.’
Old men forget: yet all shall be forgot,
But he’ll remember with advantages
What feats he did that day: then shall our names.
Familiar in his mouth as household words
Harry the king, Bedford and Exeter,
Warwick and Talbot, Salisbury and Gloucester,
Be in their flowing cups freshly remember’d.
This story shall the good man teach his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne’er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remember’d;
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne’er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition:
And gentlemen in England now a-bed
Shall think themselves accursed they were not here,
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon Saint Crispin’s daaaay!
Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more;
Or close the wall up with our English dead.
In peace there’s nothing so becomes a man
As modest stillness and humility
But when the blast of war blows in our ears,
Then imitate the action of the tiger;
Stiffen the sinews, summon up the blood!
Disguise fair nature with hard-favour’d rage;

Then lend the eye a terrible aspect;
Let pry through the portage of the head
Like the brass cannon; let the brow o’erwhelm it
As fearfully as doth a galled rock
O’erhang and jutty his confounded base,
Swill’d with the wild and wasteful ocean.

Now set the teeth and stretch the nostril wide,
Hold hard the breath and bend up every spirit
To his full height. On, on, you noblest English!
Whose blood is fet from fathers of war-proof!
Fathers that, like so many Alexanders,
Have in these parts from morn till even fought
And sheathed their swords for lack of argument:

Dishonour not your mothers; now attest
That those whom you call’d fathers did beget you.
Be copy now to men of grosser blood,
And teach them how to WAR! And you, good yeoman
Whose limbs were made in England, show us here
The mettle of your pasture; let us swear
That you are worth your breeding; which I doubt not;
For there is none of you so mean and base,
That hath not noble lustre in your eyes.
I see you stand like greyhounds in the slips,
Straining upon the start. The game’s afoot:
Follow your spirit, and upon this charge
Cry ‘God for Harry, England, and Saint Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrge!”

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The Medieval Mind of C.S. Lewis

Most people encounter C.S. Lewis as a Christian apologist or an author of stories — either the children’s series of Narnia, or his fascinating “space trilogy”, which combined mythology, medieval cosmology, and character drama to good effect. His occupation, though, was as a don of literature — especially medieval literature, and Baxter here argues that Lewis was more at home in medieval Christendom than in modernity. The Medieval Mind of C.S. Lewis illustrates how medieval culture permeated Lewis’ fictional work, and reflects on his love for Dante and appreciation for the medieval model of Creation. While I was already aware of Lewis’ fondness for the medieval mind — his Disarded Image was a tribute and explanation to it — I found much to appreciate about The Medieval Mind, showcasing as it does a large part of one of my very favorite author’s personality. I was especially interested in the idea that medievalism permeated Narnia — not because of the kings and queens, but that Lewis had written the books with medieval atmosphere in mind: Baxter and evidently other authors believe that each of the Narnia books was written with one element of the medieval cosmology in mind, each element dominating a particular book. The focus is largely on that cosmology — the geography that Dante navigates in the Commedia — and not so much on politics. For a Lewis fan, this should definitely be of interest.

Coming up: I’ll be finishing Living in Wonder this weekend, then reading a Kingsnorth title to finish my goal of reading one book by each author at the Resisting the Machine conference last weekend.

Highlights:

It was this professorial Lewis who in a 1955 letter lamented that modern renderings of old poems made up a “dark conspiracy . . . to convince the modern barbarian that the poetry of the past was, in its own day, just as mean, colloquial, and ugly as our own.”

Music is philosophical therapy, bringing the soul back into tune with the great Conductor’s universe.

Standing in a medieval cathedral gives you a kind of x-ray vision of the world. Meaning is everywhere, full and rich. The material world has been gathered to a saturation point. In a cathedral, then, the spiritual world feels like it is leaking in, and our response is to want to soar up and through and out.

In sum, while the medieval cosmos was alive, a great living being, a world that moved because it experienced desire, for modernity the world is made up of passive lumps of matter, waiting to be acted on by forces, suspended within space.

There doesn’t seem to be a moment in Lewis’s adult life in which Dante was not close at hand and vividly present in his thoughts. The Florentine was a constant interlocutor. Just as when Augustine wanted to talk about love or loss, and would reach into his mind to try to find language adequate to capture the power of the experience, and would inadvertently begin quoting passages from Virgil, Lewis would open his mouth to say something moving and personal and find himself quoting Dante.

Purification must precede illumination; and illumination precedes unity. For the medieval mind, you could not skip to the end: you had to be religious before being spiritual.

“I say my prayers, I read a book of devotion, I prepare for, or receive, the Sacrament. But while I do these things, there is, so to speak, a voice inside me that urges caution. It tells me to be careful, to keep my head, not to go too far, not to burn my boats. I come into the presence of God with a great fear, lest anything should happen to me within that presence which will prove too intolerably inconvenient when I have to come out again into my “ordinary” life. I don’t want to be carried away into any resolution which I shall afterwards regret. . . . This is my endlessly recurrent temptation: to go down to that Sea (I think St. John of the Cross called God a sea) and there neither dive nor swim nor float, but only dabble and splash, careful not to get out of my depth and holding on to the lifeline which connects me with my things temporal.”

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Thinking about occupations and vocations

Daily writing prompt
What alternative career paths have you considered or are interested in?

I am not a career-oriented person: when I was younger, I didn’t have a driving ambition to Become Something other than a husband & father: a career was simply something I would’ve done to support that vocation. When I was asked as a kid what I wanted to do when I grew up, I’d give various answers — a comic-drawer like Bill Watterson, a radio station DJ, a CIA agent. (The last makes me shudder.) In high school, I did realize an interest in writing and became interested in journalism, but had such poor social skills that I didn’t think it would be possible to pursue that option. This is probably one of the biggest what-ifs of my life — what if I’d pursue that path? Writing is a passion, a hobby, a relentless itch that I have to scratch: this very blog was born in 2007 because of that itch. I rapidly gained social skills in my twenties and would’ve been able to make a go of it, I think — ignoring the collapse of journalism as a profession! Instead, I chose libraries, given my bookish nature, love of history and literature, and desire to help people. In my particular work at the library, though, books almost never enter the picture: it’s more social work meets IT, with the occasional local history question, and frankly it can be draining at times. Because of that, back in 2021 I was actively thinking about a move into IT: I already knew how to build and repair computers, and was studying for the CompTIA A+ exam. Back then I was in a place in life where I felt like getting away from everything (think Jim’s move to Stamford in The Office), and had some idea of going to New Mexico someplace and creating a new life for myself. Instead, in October I nearly died from an undiagnosed autoimmune disorder that had destroyed my kidneys, and in the wake of that drama — the intense support from my community, work, church, family, the toll it and the transplant the next year took on my savings — my dream changed to a commitment to serving the people who had been there for me, now feeling a sense of duty. I’ve continued to pursue IT training — using Coursera and virtual machines to learn things like Active Directory — but more as a backup in case circumstances force me to leave this area. (I also find technical training fun, believe it or not.) Although it would be much easier to find work in that field (especially given that I “do” IT at work now, servicing our computers), it wouldn’t be meaningful like writing or public service are, and I detest the idea of doing something just for money. If I just wanted money, I could drive trucks. Of course, I’ve also been told throughout my life that I’d make a good pastor/monk/priest, including in my college years when I wasn’t even religious! Two of my priests have been second-vocation priests, so one never knows. Perhaps one day I’ll be some Bendictine abbey’s librarian-IT guru, installing Windows 20 while contemplating the Mysteries of the Rosary…

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WWW Wednesday

Today’s prompt from Long & Short Reviews is: what do I do when I’m bored? Ehm…. I read, if I can, and if not I think about things or tell stories in my head — sometimes thinking about fiction I’m trying to write, sometimes playing with storylines for The Sims games, sometimes with characters I made up in my head when I was a kid and have continued to mentally ‘play’ with. Sometimes all of these combine: a prominent character in a series of short stories was one who came to life in The Sims 2, but was translated into the real world a few years back when I wrote a story about church drama to amuse some of my friends, and my brain still likes mulling over fictional scenarios and how he might act in them.

WHAT are you reading? I’m most of the way through The Medieval Mind of C.S. Lewis, I’m a third of the way through Living in Wonder, and I just started the Audible version of What If? 2, read by Wil Wheaton.

WHAT have you finished reading recently? The Old Lion, Jeff Shaara. A novel about Teddy Roosevelt. Enjoyable well enough, but not memorable.

WHAT are you reading next? Once I finish the aforementioned titles, I’m going to try a Kingsnorth title, Confessions of a Recovering Environmentalist — which, based on what I’ve heard from him, will be about his realizing that we’re on the Titanic after it hit the iceberg. He still has environmentalist values but has lost all faith that the global elite and the machine they control genuinely care about the Earth.

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Top Teddy Tuesday

Today’s TTT is how our reading habits have changed over time. First up, though, the ol’ Teddy Tease.

Loeb made a small sound, and Roosevelt waited for more, saw his son Archie running past in pursuit. With a hint of alarm, Loeb said, “Which one was that, sir?”
“That was Archie, my second youngest.”
“No, sir, the animal.”
“Oh. That was Josiah, the badger. I call him Josh.” (The Old Lion: A Novel of Theodore Roosevelt, Jeff Shaara)

The thing is, enchantment that doesn’t compel you to change your life is not enchantment at all. It’s going to be hard to make this journey back to a richer and more vital understanding of our spiritual lives, but what else can we do? As Virgil says to Dante when they first met in the forest clearing, if you stay here, you’re going to die. (Living in Wonder, Rod Dreher)

So! Ways my reading has changed through the years…

(1) Rereads. Before entering the workforce, I didn’t have the means to buy books very often, so I would constantly re-read the titles I had. My copies of The Rainmaker and The Last Juror, as well as many Star Trek paperbacks and S.E. Hinton paperbacks, are absolutely battered. These days it’s rare that I re-read a book, with some exceptions: Asimov’s Black Widower mysteries are always enjoying little diversions, and occasionally I re-read a book to give it a proper review or to see how my perspective has changed over a course of years.

(2) Reading anything. As a kid, I’d come home from the library with books on anything and everything, but in high school I’d drifted to reading far more narrowly — just history, Star Trek, and thrillers. In 2005/2006 I began questioning my worldview rather drastically and began reading much more nonfiction and from a broader range. It began with my rediscovering the joys of science, but then I began reading philosophy, economics, urban planning, etc.

(3) A shift to e-reading. After I finally bought a smartphone (in 2018 — very much the black mirror skeptic) and could begin reading Kindle titles on my phone, ebooks have grown to account for at least half of my reading in any given year. I still read and love physical books, but the space saving and convenience have counted for a lot, not to mention my library’s ebook collection grows steadily with every year.

(4) The force is not with this one. I used to read Star Wars novels on a regular basis, but after the rat-empire seized Star Was as a property and declared the entirety of the Extended Universe vanquished, in favor of its far inferior cinematic storytelling, I’ve lost interest in the franchise as a whole.

(5) Fiction has had a huge upsurge this year, seizing a lead early and never relinquishing it. I’m still rooting for NF. (“Aren’t you ….in charge of that?”, a reader may ask, the answer is — no, not really. I follow the Muses, or their bookish equivalents.)

(6) Religious reading has changed enormously since I first began writing this blog in 2007 — back then I’d just left Pentecostalism and was mostly reading anti-religious works, but within a couple of years, I’d become inexplicably interested in religion, philosophy, and meaning: religion & philosophy reading hit a high water mark in 2009, and was all over the place. I’d read stuff I knew I wouldn’t like just to be exposed to it, like The Four Agreements and Deepak Chopra. Over the years (beginning with 2011) my religious reading has become more tightly focused to Christianity, and specifically to Catholic & Orthodox theology & practice.

(7) and (8). Science fiction and historical fiction have both grown over the years. Early on, the only Hf I read was Jeff Shaara novels, but then I stumbled onto Steven Saylor and Bernard Cornwell and they led me to others, like Kane and Harris, and soon I was even reading historical fiction that didn’t involve stabbing and shooting. Science fiction, likewise, began as “Star Trek and Isaac Asimov”, but now I’m fairly active reading it and have several favorite contemporary authors: Daniel Suarez comes to mind.

(9) Audiobooks are now a thing. For most of this blog’s history, I almost never read an audiobook except for the occasional one on CD. That changed when I learned that Wil Wheaton was an audible reader, which proved to be my gateway drug into Audible in general.

(10) This is less about reading and more about reviewing, but if you go back to 2007/2008 you’ll find my reviews are painfully formal, whereas now I’m perfectly happy to post something like Kinfolk, half of which was written in a southern vernacular inspired by both Sean Dietrich’s folksiness. I think my reviews have gotten progressively more ‘personable’ over the years. I don’t go back to my early reviews unless I want to find out about a book, whereas I’ll read my reviews from later years simply to amuse myself with my own writing. (Or facepalm, because how in the hell have I let that sentence fragment live long enough to get a driving license?)

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