The Sober Diaries

In the afterwords of The Authenticity of Project, author Clare Pooley noted that it was her attempt to capture in fiction something she’s done in fact: change her life through honesty. She’d done it by blogging her journey to sobriety, beginning with the embarrassing account of her pouring some wine into a WORLD’S BEST MOM coffee cup just to combat a morning hangover to be there for her kids. The diary takes readers through an entire year of starter sobriety and details the psychological, physical, and social challenges she faced, as well as the changes she observed. Pooley’s journey to sobriety had the additional challenge of a cancer diagnosis several months in. I’ve never read anything like this before and found it fairly absorbing, although after a month or so it appears Pooley had more or less settled in on the right track. The biggest ongoing challenge was the expectation of social drinking, which she negated in part by drinking nonalcoholic ‘drinks’ like Beck’s Blue. There were only a couple of times that she was tempted by her old frenemy wine: one time her husband stumbled in on her contemplating a glass and intervened, another time she pulled her own self back. This is not a journey I’ve been on, personally, so I can’t comment on what her depiction of “Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome” is like: this entails mood swings and such as the brain continues to find a new normal after its chronic chemical sedation suddenly ceases. It was the beginning of this book that was most arresting, with Clare finally admitting that her bottle-of-wine a day habit was a problem, and she began dealing with the feelings of shame — both for having a problem and for potentially being a problem for her husband and kids — but forced herself to start moving in the right direction. I imagine whether the issue is sobriety or weight loss, getting started is always the hardest part. This appears to be very popular with readers, at least those who aren’t offended by the fact that Clare is upper middle class and not writing this memoir from a trailer park. On a partially irrelevant side note: I’ve read nearly two Pooley novels now, and was amused to see common elements in this and the novels, from words of wisdom to her frequent Harry Potter and David Attenborough references.

(Yes, this was supposed to be my next read, but I hit a stall during People on Platform 5 and looked at this instead, and then wound up reading it through. Should finish People on Platform 5 sometime today, though.)

Related:
Rachel’s Holiday, Marian Keyes. An unreliable narrator is forced to go to rehab.

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March 2026 in Review + WWW Wednesday

After a vigorous opening for the year, my reading fell back rather dramatically this month before starting to recover with some short biographies and novels at the close. (The novels were Britfic, too, a nice segue into Read of England.) Part of that was spending a lot of time with The Confessions and Order of the Phoenix, full-cast audio edition; the latter was nearly 27 hours of listening in the car and in bed. (I must say, drifting to sleep with Dolores Umbridge hissing at Harry is not advisable.) I made some progress in both the Classics Club and my America @ 250 reading, though I need to broaden my range outside of presidents. I’m looking for a proper history of Philly for my “cities’ track. The Science Survey has yet to get moving, but I am reading a title at present.

WWW Wednesday

WHAT have you finished reading recently? Rutherford B. Hayes, Hans Toufousse; The Authenticity Project, Clare Pooley.

WHAT are you reading now? The People on Platform 5, Clare Pooley.

WHAT are you reading next? The Sober Diaries, Clare Pooley. Told you I was going to binge her!

America @ 250

Ulysses S. Grant, Josiah Bunting III
Rutherford B. Hayes, Hans Trefousse

Classics Club

The Confessions, St. Augustine. Trans. Anthony Esolen.
Paradise Lost, John Milton

Coming up in April…

Read of England, of course, my annual focus on English literature and English history. I have three English lit options on my Classics Club list, and last year I acquired a sack of English history (along with some Southern history) for just a few dollars:

Nonbook Commonplace Quotes

We develop an unconscious set toward reading based on how we read during most of our digital-based hours. If most of those hours involve reading on the distraction-saturated Internet, where sequential thinking is less important and less used, we begin to read that way even when we turn off the screen and pick up a book or newspaper…There is a worrisome and potentially more lasting aspect to this “bleeding over” effect…:the more we read digitally, the more our underlying brain circuitry reflects the characteristics of that medium. The Reading Rebellion“, School of the Unconformed

Most people, historically, have not lived their lives as if thinking, “I have only one life to live.” Instead they have lived as if they are living their ancestors’ lives and their offspring’s lives and perhaps their neighbors’ lives as well. They have seen themselves as inseparable from the great tide of chromosomes of which they are created and which they pass on. The mere fact that you were only going to be here a short time and would be dead soon enough did not give you the license to try to climb out of the stream and change the natural order of things. “Me Generation”, Tom Wolfe as quoted on “The Me Generation’, Fifty Years On“. Rod Dreher.

At the root of our “metacrisis” is “the whole way in which we dispose our hearts and minds towards the world.” If you look at the world as a problem to be solved, as opposed to a mystery to be lived, you’re going to be miserable. There is no twelve-point formula for How To Live A Good Life, any more than there is a formula that, once you learn it, makes you a violinist. You have to learn by doing.Teachings of the Monk of Skye“, Rod Dreher. Lex orandi, lex credendi….

“If moral reasoning is one casualty of reliance on LLMs, it is far from the only one. Consider writing. Writing is not simply a way to display what we know—it is the process through which we figure out what we think.” When AI Thinks For Us“, Hyoungbin Park. Skeptic magazine.

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Teaser Tuesday

Without getting ahead of my story, let’s just say that nearly every planet and moon that ever existed in the solar system was consumed by something bigger than itself, and that makes all the difference in the world. Most planets are now inside of a gas giant (Jupiter or Saturn), or inside the Sun; others are inside of Uranus and Neptune. Two or three additional Neptune-mass giants are believed to have existed that were consumed by the Sun or else ejected to roam the galaxy. Diversity is a matter of perspective, of what’s left: we don’t behold any ordinary planets. Almost every planet that ever existed was consumed by something greater; what’s left are the fortunate and the unusual survivors. WHEN THE EARTH HAD TWO MOONS

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Moviewatch: March 2026

Given that I have class tomorrow night, it’s good odds my movie-watching for March is completed! My film viewing, like my book-reading, was extremely slow for the first part of the month and then exploded in the second half.

A Simple Favor. 2018. Anna Kendrick!   An adorable and earnest single mom (Anna Kendrick) becomes friendsies with Blake Lively, a cynical and charismatic Lady of Business.  Then Blake goes missing, and Anna K’s cooking & crafts vlog becomes an odd vector for people getting obsessed with the case and submitting tips.  I didn’t know anything about the premise, so it was…er,  more racy than expected.  It reminded me a bit of Gone Girl –  compelling and repellant at the same time –  but it turns into a black comedy.  The ending was….outrageous. Anna Kendrick continues to be a favorite. 

“Secrets are like margarine: easy to spread, bad for the heart.” 

Blake Lively: “You are so nice, I have no idea how you’ve lasted this long.”
Drunk Anna Kendrick:  “I’m not as nice as you think.”

“Let’s sit here and not talk. Let’s sit here and feel lousy and watch the grass grow.”

“CAN I SAY SOMETHING AS THE LADY WITH THE GUN?!”

11.22.63   Okay ,this is a miniseries, not a movie proper, but I watched the entire series through for the second time. I largely enjoyed the film work, acting, and execution, though I suspect some of my enjoyment comes from Sadie Dunhill;  between her actor and her character she’s such a lovely character, and the “We did not ask for this room” bit at the end always moves me.  I was slightly irritated to realize while watching this that I couldn’t remember the differences between the book and the TV series, aside from the Yellow Card Man who in the series appears to have been a time traveler who found himself trapped after fruitless attempts to change the past himself.

The Irishman, 2019. Why will I happily watch this 3.5 hour movie almost every year but have resisted starting an entire pile of 2-hour movies  on account of their being “too long”.?   The Irishman is the last in Scorcese’s series of Mob movies, this one tracking the career of Frank Sheeran (Robert de Niro)  – an ambitious driver turned fixer associated with the Philadelphia mob bosses Angelo Bruno & Russel Bufalino (Joe Pesci).  The movie ultimately turns into a Jimmy Hoffa story, as Hoffa – played by Al Pacino –  is disappeared by the mob when he begins chafing at his replacement in the Teamsters Union by  Tony Pro,  a Teamster captain who was a lot closer to the mob than Hoffa was. 

Casino, 1995.  Robert DiNiro, Joe Pesci,  Frank Vincent, James Woods, Sharon Stone.  DeNiro  plays Ace Rothstein, who is tapped to manage a mob-owned casino in Las Vegas.  His buddy Joe Pesci, a made guy in the Mob who has an unfortunate tendency to mess things up in a violent way, tags along. DeNiro makes things worse by marrying a woman who is obvious trouble and then being fool enough to trust her even after she repeatedly demonstrates she has a bizarre hangup for her former boyfriend, a loser and scam artist. A re-watch for me, but it’s been 20 years. The main thing I enjoyed was seeing Frank Vincent in a minor role; he played my favorite antagonist in The Sopranos, the Shah of Iran AKA Phil Leotardo.

About my Father, 2023. Robert DiNiro plays a Sicilian working-class dad whose son Sebastian is marrying into a hoity-toity WASP family. DiNiro insists on meeting the family before he’ll give Sebastian the family ring used for engagements, and hilarity ensues.   While it frequently drifts into the absurd,  ultimately it proves to be a sweet story about a father and son. Allegedly based on a true story.

“My dad loves the 4th of July. “
“Why? Because he was in the military?”
“No, because it’s the only holiday he didn’t have to buy a gift for.”

License to Wed, 2007. I’m fairly sure I watched this twenty years ago, because I don’t miss anything Robin Williams related.   The story is simple: Jon Krasinksi and Mandy Moore want to get married, but Mandy’s family has a tradition of getting married at St. Augustine’s,  which is pastored by Father Frank (Robin Williams).   The supporting cast has a LOT of people from The Office, including Angela Kinsey and Brian Baumgartner, so I’m guessing it was filmed between Office seasons.   The movie bounds from sweet to silly to sacrilegious: it’s a fairly awful depiction of a Catholic priest, from his acceptance of cohabitation before marriage to the fact that he’s wearing gold vestments when it’s plainly not Easter or something comparable.  Prop departments, take notice: green vestments are always safest unless you’re telling a Christmas story. Considering that the story is supposed to be about weddings in a religious context, I thought it very peculiar that the theology of marriage was absolutely absent. It’s not surprising given the amount of slapstick humor – this is not a serious film – but still noticeable to me. 

Jobs, 2013.  Another rewatch: I can’t remember when I first watched this, but during this re-watch all I could think of was “Wow, the Fassbender version is SO much better”.   I periodically binge on clips from the Fassbender version because his performance of Jobs is so complex, especially when he’s butting heads with Seth Rogan’s unexpectedly good Steve Wozniak.    Anyway, this is a biopic of Steve Jobs featuring Ashton Kutcher, covering Apple from its garage creation to the launch of the iPod, which turned Apple from a struggling tech company into a behemoth. 

Two for the Money, 2005.  Pacino & McConaughey? Alright, alright, alright!  Matt plays a high school football star whose future career in pro ball is blitzed by an injury;  while he waits for healing and his attempt to enter the draft again, he starts handicapping sports betting and proves to have quite a knack for it. Al Pacino, who borrows from his Milton in The Devil’s Advocate, is a professional handicapper whose firm gamblers pay for leads; he hires on  McConaughey and  soon the two are raking in the money – but then McConaughey’s gift seems to disappear.  I watched this for the lead actors and that was about the only reason to watch it.

BlackBerry, 2023.  This proved to be an all-around interesting movie about the rise and fall of Blackberry, though in my background reading I see that it took liberties with its characters.  We see a couple of nerd-engineers who have found a genius idea failing to pitch it successfully, then being bailed out by an corporate insider who is not a techie but who knows how to pitch an idea and run a company. He drives them to greatness, but then his new interests (buying sports teams) and the unexpected arrival of the iPhone enter the picture.  I gotta say, I loved the late 1990s/early 2000s nerd culture, from the DOOM t-shirts to the company LAN party paying Command and Conquer. I also read Losing the Signal, a history of the rise and fall of BlackBerry shortly after this, and let me say – the movie took a LOT of liberties with the characters. The corpo was familiar with the field, for instance, and he was not fired for delivering someone else’s pitch; his company was bought out by another and he was made redundant.  The book also goes into far more detail on how BlackBerry struggled to adapt to the iphone and its infrastructure:  the BlackBerry team weren’t caught by surprise by the iPhone, but the product they’d created was simply too different (in terms of its security architecture) to allow for an easy pivot to the iPhone’s data-driven approach.

Favorite moment: when the hockey-obsesed exec yells “I’M FROM WATERLOO, WHERE THE VAMPIRES  hang out!”. This is evidently a reference to a video that went viral in Canada, which is anachronistic but very localist.

Blast from the Past, 1999. A rewatch with the lady-friend. This is an old favorite and one I’ve rewatched many times over the years. A wealthy but eccentric engineer builds a fallout shelter for himself and his pregnant wife: in 1962,    during the Cuban Missile Crisis,  they retreat into it just in case things go southwards.  As it happens, one thing does go southward: a jet, which plows into their house and sets off the containment measures. 35 years later,  the engineer’s son emerges into a very changed world and hilarity ensues.  “Adam” is basically an Ozzie and Harriet  kind of guy in a Seinfield world, so most of the humor comes from the dissonance – but so does its charm, because Adam is a sweet guy who makes a couple of friends who don’t know what to make of someone who is so un-cynical.   It’s clearly been a while since I watched this, since I was startled to see Nathan Fillon from Firefly and to recognize Sissy Spacek as the mother. 

Another Simple Favor, 2025.   Anna Kendrick and Blake Lively return as besties-most-likely-to-murder-one-another.  If you haven’t watched A Simple Favor, close your eyes and hum if you don’t want spoilers.   Blake Lively is out of prison – the prison Anna put her in last time – and is getting married. She’s invited Anna to said wedding. Why?  Who knows?!  This has the same perverse energy as the first movie –  where beauty and funny and menace are all mixed together,   where teases and flirts and threats are NOT far apart.  As with the first movie, there’s a delicious  plot twist that puts things on their head. The cinematography is  quite well done,  though I can’t give specifics without spoiling a bit.  Anna Kendrick is ever adorable, and Blake Lively excels as the attractive but dangerous femme fatale.  She shows a lot of acting range here, but again no specifics because of spoilers. 

“You’re going to watch your [book] sales and followers soar as you maid-of-honor the woman who tried to murder you!  Did I mention it was in Capri? ….if I do try to murder you, it will make an amazing sequel.”

“What did she say to you to convince you to come to this farce?”
“Oh….a little emotional blackmail, potential lawsuit, dangling my livelihood over my head. You  know, just girlfriend stuff.”
“Well. Here’s to murderous girlfriends and murderous exes.”

Mrs. Doubtfire, 1993. Robin Williams plays an irresponsible but loving father who is divorced by Sally Field;  after learning that she’s looking to hire a housekeeper (rather than let him spend time with the kids in the afternoons), he decides to ….be an elderly pseudo-Scottish housekeeper!    Lots of physical comedy and emotional drama ensues. This is a rewatch for me: I know I watched it in the 1990s on VHS, and at least one time thereafter, but it’s been a long time – like, I don’t think I’ve seen it in my adult life. Portions of the film are MUCH funnier because I understand the film references, from “I’m ready for my close-up!” to the montage where Robin Williams is channeling Tom Cruise in Risky Business.

The Public, 2018. Emilio Estevez is a humble librarian working in Cinncinati’s main library downtown. When a large group of homeless people refuse to leave the library and began barricading the doors, Estevez stays behind. Although at first I thought he was doing this to keep an eye on them and try to meditate the inevitable police situation, as the movie progresses we learn Estevez’ character was once homeless himself, and found sobriety and hope through the library. An interesting movie for class discussion. I had some doubts about how accurately libraries are shown here: there’s no constant din of people’s cellphones, and his homeless people are all very well groomed and read books while they’re occupying the library, as opposed to talking to the voices in their head. To the degree that mental illness shows up here, it borders on being fun eccentricism instead of deeply unsettling and dangerous. I used to have to regularly confiscate hedgetrimmers from a patron who later murdered a woman in a bookstore, so I don’t have the same rosy perspective as say, a comfortable screenwriter.

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The Say Hayes Kid

Oh, hey, it’s that guy from Home Alone

In my Hail to the Chief series, I am embarking on a Trilogy of Unknowns: Rutherford Hayes, James Garfield, and Chester A. Arthur. The only one I’d recognize in a lineup is Arthur because of his wonderful lambchops: they know how to style facial hair back then! Hayes, on first reading , is remarkably like Grover Cleveland, at least one moves past the military record. While Cleveland had no apparent interest in the War, Hayes was a zealous Unionist who served as an officer in the war, taking credit for helping to create the Battle of South Mountain and being wounded in the process. Where they converge is that Hayes became a successful attorney, and on seeking public office, rose to the role of Governor and was known for his dedication to clean government and solid money. Despite this, though, he entered into office under a storm of scandal: because Reconstruction was already fading fast away, there were disputes over who had truly won three states, and particularly who had won Florida. Deciding the vote ultimately came down to a commission, which voted entirely on party lines: the newly appointed President Hayes now had to execute the responsibilities of his office while knowing half the country viewed him as entirely illegitimate. John Quincy Adams labored under similar circumstances, his own election having been decided in the House of Representatives. Hayes applied his principles by being a stick;er for the gold standard, and on ending the spoils system that allowed political offices to be given out as a reward for electoral support, rather than merit. Although he sometimes catches flack for “ending Reconstruction”, the author points out that most of the South had already been ‘redeemed’ by the Bourbons, and that the last three were fast on the way. The North had lost interest in occupying and managing the South, but Hayes did his best to safeguard the new rights of black Americans and to bring the country together again. This biography delivers a strong impression of him as a man of principle, even sticking to his early declaration to only serve one term so that his actions in office would not be predicated on the desire to be popular, only to do the right thing.

(My punny title comes from the fact that Hayes was a huge fan of proto-baseball, and was playing it well before there were standard rules. This was alas, not mentioned here.)

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The Authenticity Project

Imagine, dear reader, that you encountered an obviously abandoned composition notebook in a cafe or library, and picked it up to find an invitation to tell your darkest secrets and fears. What would you say? That’s the premise of The Authenticity Project, in which an aging artist’s idea to confess his loneliness starts a chain reaction and creates a tight community from a group of relative strangers: the book passes from hand to hand, moving as far as Thailand before returning to England’s green and pleasant hills. The result is a book that’s a wonderfully sweet story about human connection, but not one that’s saccarine: the book brings people together, but it also creates its own drama, and even without it people are good causing drama all on their own. This was my introduction to Clare Pooley, and I suspect she may be for me a Rachel Joyce-like author on whom I binge.

Although the cast of this book increases steadily as the months wear on, our principle characters are Julian and Monica, both of whom live in the same neighborhood of London. Julian is an aging artist who used to consort with all the high-fashion creators of the day, and has a house filled with outrageous outfits: Monica is an accomplished but frustrated cafe owner, a woman with a background in law and business who instead chose to create a place for people to enjoy good coffee and company in a homey cafe with its own library. Julian confesses his loneliness, and Monica her desire for a husband and family despite being raised to be an archfeminist: she cites the Pankhursts as readily as Christians do Jesus. When Julian leaves the notebook with his confessions about being a poor husband to his late wife, Monica is inspired: she approaches him and asks if he would be willing to teach art classes in her cafe on a weekly basis. This is the nucleus of a community that grows throughout the book; each character brings their own failures and dashed hopes, but they also bring with them a desire to help the other lives they encounter in the book. There are complications, however; two people begin drawing close, but then the woman recoils when she realizes the man knows ‘all about her’ through the book, and another man has deep-seated addictions that he’s not quite finished battling. They will affect both him and the people who have grown attached to him as the book wears on.

This is an incredibly sweet story about found-family and community, and the author nicely balances stress and drama as she tells it. The only fly in the soup is that it might not have happened if people hadn’t so readily provided their real names; the London neighborhood this is set in is cozy enough that people can figure out who the writer are with context. However, Pooley is still able to maintain the tension between reality and appearances even within that context — most tellingly, in one scene where a frustrated young mother spies a couple dancing in a cafe, and yearns for what they want. In reality, the situation is far more complicated, and it makes the tension even more interesting for the reader who is growing to realize that even what’s confessed in the notebook may not be the True Story. I shall definitely be reading more of Ms. Pooley!

Quotations

Julian didn’t avoid the bad memories. If anything, he encouraged them. They were his penance.

Sometimes, Riley wished he’d never found The Authenticity Project. He didn’t like knowing other people’s secrets—it felt like prying. Yet, once he’d read their stories, he hadn’t been able to forget about Julian, Monica, and Hazard. It was like being partway through a novel, becoming invested in the characters, then leaving it on a train before you reached the end.

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Paradise Lost

Govern well thy appetite, lest Sin surprise thee, and her black attendant, Death!

Like Dante’s Divine Comedy, Milton’s Paradise Lost is a key bit of Christian literature which has shaped people’s understanding of Bible stories in an indirect way; that is, Milton and Dante’s interpretation of Biblical events and places has become our understanding of said events and places, even though they’re extra-biblical. I’ve frequently encountered choice quotes from it over the years and have wanted to properly dig in to it. I should note that this will be a mixed-media review: while I did read the physical book, I also listened to the BBC-4 dramatization of it which gave certain characters powerful expression (Ian McDiarmid as Satan is perfect casting) and others….not. Jesus and Adam sounded rather dainty. God, thankfully, is not: as a matter of fact, when I was lying in bed and listening, I could definitely see his lines being delivered by Aslan.)

Paradise Lost is an English poem which recounts both Satan’s exile from Heaven and Man’s fall from Grace. As we learn, the two are related: the book opens with Satan’s rebellion against the Son, and his and his followers’ subsequent falling from Heaven into Hell, where Satan vows to make a kingdom. The creation of Earth allows him opportunity for greater empire, and the temptation is particularly sweet given that God has created new creatures in His own image, creatures whose fall Satan would dearly loved to effect. Although the Son volunteers to leave heaven to frustrate Satan’s plans, readers are subsequently treated to Satan’s frustrated attempts to get into the garden, finally having to possess the body of a snake — a hateful choice, but one made in spite — in order to access the couple. Milton’s narrative adds a lot to the story, because the archangel Raphael explicitly goes to the garden, tells him the account of Creation, and warns Adam that there’s something rotten in the state of Eden. (Then they discuss heliocentrism, which frankly I was not expecting, but Milton evidently met Galileo.) Alas, Eve has the idea of splitting up to get more done, and Satan is able to use his ability to “speak” as a serpent to convince her — amid enormous flattery — that eating of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil will similarly uplift her. (Given that I first experienced this while listening to McDiarmid, I couldn’t help but think of Palpatine’s similar seduction of Anakin into the Dark Side with the “Have you heard the tale of Darth Plageius the Wise?” scene.) Then she and Adam prove that codependency has a long pedigree and go down together rather than be separated.

This was an impressive work: Milton’s reputation as as an English stylist is well deserved. There were numerous phrases like “devils to adore for deities” that I immediately had to scribble down and think about. Having read CS Lewis’ Preface to Paradise Lost, I knew already Milton is slightly heterodox, especially in his views on the Trinity: I thought it was interesting that he never refers to Jesus, but rather The Son, placing emphasis on that character’s subordinate relationship to The Father. That connects directly to the text, because Satan is resentful that another creature besides himself is being exalted. Ultimately, Satan’s observation that “myself am hell” proves true: his self-obsession drives him from being chief of the angels to being a petty and spiteful spirit possessing a snake crawling in the dirt.

This is also a challenging book to read for a modern reader, rather like Dante, because there’s a lot of culture we may not be familiar with: Milton drinks deeply from classical culture, with allusions a-plenty, and properly understanding what’s going on relies on knowledge of that (or at least, annotations) and some help with medieval cosmology, as there are lots of astrological connections as well. I wound up making use of three versions of the book to find annotations sufficient, and listened to a lecture from Tony Esolen to boot. (He can perform large portions of the poem from memory, and I say perform rather than recite for a reason.) I definitely enjoyed this, but I think the BBC adaptation went a long way to giving it more life: even when I was reading sections rather than listening to them, I could hear Palpatine-Satan.

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Eleanor Oliphant is Per *hic* Perfect *hic* SHE’S FINE

Eleanor Oliphant  has worked at the same firm every year since she graduated college, and she has an unvarying routine of going home and watching tv while eating packaged meals. On weekends, she drinks vodka by the liter, staying  pleasantly  drunk until she wakes up Monday morning for another week at the firm. She keeps to herself and finds her coworkers as strange as she suspects they find her. One day, though, an old man crumples to the ground while she’s walking outside, and when she’s called over to help by one of her coworkers, she unwittingly sets on a course that will begin recalling her to life from her prison of routine and isolation. So begins a novel with a fascinating lead character who the reader will quickly realize is hiding some serious trauma — from herself and from those around her. Ultimately it’s a story of a woman facing her demons with a little help from her friends.

Because of my fondness for odd characters like Ove and Arthur Entwhistle,   this book has become highly recommended to me.  There are some faint similarities, in that this is partially a story of a socially withdrawn and introverted personality being drawn out of herself and into the world again. This struck me from the beginning as a more serious read than any of my previous curmudgeon/Sheldon-esque characters, however — in part because Eleanor is very obviously an alcoholic, and she maintains ties with an emotionally abusive mother, with hints of a very bad history between them. The humor is here in abundance, of course; Eleanor not grasping basic social cues, and being so disconnected from ordinary society that she finds it strange and acts as an alien observer. Both this and A Man Called Ove have mentally troubled characters with tragedy weighing on them, but in Eleanor Oliphant the tragedy weighed heavier on me because the character has closed herself off to everything but a few bad habits. Ove at least had his memories of his wife to dwell in.

This was an interesting novel: I didn’t take it to it as enthusiastically as I have others in this ‘genre’, if it can be called a genre; I think part of that was that I hadn’t expected the trauma along with the weird and whimsy.

Quotations:


If [Jane Eyre] has one failing, it’s that there’s insufficient mention of Pilot. You simply can’t have enough dog in a book.

“Can I get you drink?” the man yelled over the top of the next song. […]
“No thank you,” I said. “I don’t want to accept a drink from you, because then I would be obliged to purchase one for you in return, and I’m simply not interested in spending two drinks’ worth of time with you.”

A semi-human bath sponge with protruding front teeth! On sale as if it were something completely unremarkable. For my entire life, people have said I’m strange, but really, when I see things like this, I realize I’m actually relatively normal.

Related:
Rachel’s Holiday. Substance abuse & unreliable narrator.
The Rosie Project. Presumably-on-the-spectrum character begins a project to find a girlfriend.

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Sam Grant

Ulysses Grant opens with Josiah Bunting III’s rueful observation that Grant is almost always thought of “General Grant”, never president — despite being the only man between Lincoln and Wilson to serve two consecutive terms. Bunting attributes this to both Grant’s military successes, his modest upbringing and demeanor, and the issues that flecked his presidency. By way of repair, Bunting’s own biography focuses the majority of its attention on Grant’s presidency: the Civil War is over and done before the reader has even gotten halfway through. Grant is an easy president to read about, largely because of his modest stillness and humility: his virtues were ordinary and plain, not dramatic. He did not have the charisma and zeal of a Jackson — with their attendant problems — and does not appear to have been a psychologically complex figure like Nixon. He simply was, “Sam Grant”: son of a tanner, a good soldier, a hard worker, and a dedicated servant of his country. As with a few others in this series, Bunting writes with no neutral pen: he plainly admires Grant and refers to him as truly noble.

I have read the memoirs of Grant before, so I was largely familiar with the tracks of Grant’s life. He was a son of the Midwest, growing up along the Ohio. Only a generation before, this area had been the frontier, and even now it was still being developed. Grant shared the spirit of industriousness the age demanded, launching a livery service even as a young lad. Per his father’s wishes, he entered into West Point and proved himself a superb horseman, but despite this was shunted into the infantry. He did well for himself in Mexico, but found serving as a quartermaster in peace interminably dull. After some head-butting with his superiors, Grant resigned to work his and his wife’s farm in a cabin they built together, but struggled and was effectively rescued by the outbreak of war. Grant had a good mind for logistics and a willingness to attack — two factors that served him well. He rose rapidly as the war developed, and by the time General Lee surrendered, had managed to achieve admiration on both sides. After the acrimony of the Johnson presidency, in which the president and Congress sparred over who had authority to conduct Reconstruction and how it should be achieved — Grant was seen as a unifying force. Despite the scandals that men in high office got up to, Bunting views Grant as a man of unimpeachable character, wholly admirable — especially given his commitment to safeguard the rights of freedmen and to enact better policies in regards to Native Americans. This drew fire from the blackguard Sherman, who regarded his old boss as having gone soft. Nothing is said of more prickly issues in Grant’s history, like his order evicting all Jews from Kentucky. (The order, composed to help squelch supplies flowing to the Confederacy through Kentucky merchants, was later countermanded by Lincoln.) Still, it’s hard not to sympathize with a man who did so much, and yet suffered with cancer in his terminal years and still worked through his constant pain in hopes of providing for his family even as poor investments left him nearly penniless.

Bunting is an interesting author who delights in allusions and quotations — World War 2, Korea, and Vietnam are all mentioned — and clearly delights in writing, sometimes striking Fosses into florid territory. As much as I enjoyed reading this, though, it’s hagiographic in tone and I can see myself looking for something more balanced and substantial, like Chernow’s beefy treatment.

Grant had an amused contempt for book learning in soldiers; such people, he said, “always knew what Frederick the Great did at one place, and Napoleon at another. Unfortunately for their plans, the rebels were always thinking of something else.

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Losing the Signal

Despite coming of age as cellphones were becoming ubiquitous, I developed an immediate dislike for them on arrival; I grudgingly bought one in 2005 when I began working, purely to keep in the car for emergencies, and but was not until 2018 when planning a trip to the Grand Canyon that I bought my first ever smartphone, a Galaxy S7. I therefore missed the BlackBerry age, but have retained a curiosity about them and their role in the ‘history of the future’. Losing the Signal was an interesting history of BlackBerry’s rise and fall, one that shed a lot of light on an era I technically lived through, but was largely oblivious to. The author generally includes all parts of the story, from BlackBerry’s personnel, to tech challenges and struggles with telecom carriers.

To the extent that I was aware of BlackBerries in the mid-2000s, it was as cellphones with internet, or at least email. Not until reading this did I appreciate how wildly inaccurate to BlackBerry’s total story that was: BlackBerry originated as a Research in Motion project that wanted to shake up the pager market by introducing two-way paging, or messaging between devices. In a market cluttered by personal assistant devices, BlackBerry succeeded by optimizing one thing very well: portable, secure, emailing. Only later did the BlackBerry begin operating as a cellphone! As someone who is not familiar at all with the high-tech business world of the late 1990s (my idea of high-tech was a GameBoy Pocket), I was amazed that email alone made the BlackBerry its fortune. True, there was an incredible amount of thought given to the user experience, from the aesthetically-pleasing clicky keyboard to the software the devices used. Designers experimented and guessed as to how first-time users might try to navigate a new tool, and the paths that people groped for were readily provided. A lot of the features implemented into the proto-Blackberry’s software, like automatically capitalizing the first words of sentences or anticipating when new sentences might be beginning, were first implemented here. (As was a ‘wheel’ access tool, borrowed from VCRs and more famously adopted by iPods.) Another aspect that BlackBerry managed to bake in was addiction: even when the device was still in development, executives who were equipped with products to test-drive found them too compelling not to look at every few minutes. Mind, this was before social media or YouTube; here the draw was simply email, and yet it was so compelling to have instant information that companies were forced to ask for phone-free meetings, and families began ‘phubbing’ one another when the BlackBerry invaded consumer markets instead of remaining a business-oriented product.

Unfortunately for BlackBerry, when its great challenger and ultimately successor arrived, the company’s CEOs were distracted — by a patent lawsuit, by an SEC investigation, and by one exec’s obsession with buying a hockey team. Perhaps if attention and money hadn’t been tied up in these matters, they would have taken the threat that Apple posed more seriously. After all, RIM’s chief owner-engineer Mike Lazaridis had opened up an iPhone to discover that it was a full-fledged Mac: BlackBerry wasn’t competing against PDAs and ordinary cellphones anymore, it was sailing into new waters entirely. Customers, too, were surprising: they evidently didn’t care that the battery in these iPhones didn’t even last a full working day; they didn’t care that it operated on a previous gen’s network. They could listen to music, and watch grainy videos, and even use a full browser online instead of a stripped-down mobile one. Unfortunately, as optimized as BlackBerries were for the early 2000s — with a minimalist operating system — in the post iPhone world they were past tense. BlackBerry needed to completely overhaul not only its technology and software, but the entire way they thought about the product — and they were too resistant. The iPhone was a toy, surely? Its text messages weren’t even secure! BlackBerry was the only communication service standing during the chaos of 9/11, it wasn’t going anywhere! ….and yet BlackBerry hemorrhaged marketshare and eventually disappeared. Even as they began grudgingly making devices that were more like iPhones, they kept dragging the past with them — from a ‘clickable’ touchscreen to their very last phone still having a physical keyboard.

This proved an interesting book on multiple levels, both in itself and as a comparison against the BlackBerry movie, which is very loosely based on this. (Very loosely: when asked to compare the two, the author Jacquie McNish replied, ‘Well, the facts are very different.’) It’s a fascinating case study in how people and companies can be absolute trail-blazers, and yet for one reason or another — personal biases, the technologies or partnerships they’ve been locked into — plateau and fade even as newcomers continue down a road that was opened for them.

Related:
The One Device, on the origin of the iPhone

Quotes

“At a focus group in Sunnyvale, California, one participant grew antagonistic when shown a device announcing emails with a buzzing noise. ‘If this thing buzzes every time I get an email, you’d better ship it with a hammer,’ he warned.”

    “‘Remove think points,’ was one of his favorite phrases. ‘I liked teaching people to put themselves in the minds of the users,’ Lazaridis says. ‘I wanted to get to the point where users prefer to use [the device] to send messages than actually power their computers.’ He believed that using the Leapfrog for email should be so instinctive that users would never have to interrupt their train of thought to hunt for a command.”

    “On this day, Lexicon’s staff was assigned to test commuter attitudes about mobile devices. When the questions turned to emails, the results surprised them. Email wasn’t a convenience; it was a stress point. Mentioning the word inspired dread about work piling up in inboxes.”

    “The point was driven home in Atlanta, where BellSouth executives, including CEO Duane Ackerman, were among the first users to receive free Blackberries. Before long, they were so addicted that Ackerman forced them to place their devices on the desk during meetings to ensure nobody was distracted. ‘I think that was kind of the closer,’ says Hightower.”

    “BlackBerry messages traveled through RIM’s in-house network, which was plugged directly into the carriers. The unique connection gave RIM a back door to sneak in services carriers wouldn’t allow. In the mid-2000s, RIM began shipping Blackberries secretly loaded with sleeper applications. Carriers and customers had no idea the applications existed until RIM sent an alert to BlackBerry users about a software upgrade. Hidden within the digital transmission was a file that unlocked the applications on the device—a web browser and links to popular instant messaging services. Icons immediately popped onto BlackBerry home screens around the world. By the time carriers realized what was happening, millions of customers were using the internet and exchanging instant messages on their Blackberries.”

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